Moods

Im having moodswings . Im feeling down , Im tired )': .. FML

Going back to study again , Olevels , Damm .

Long time ago

Back to update ! HAHA (: I know , i have not update fr one month so i shall do it now ! School have been so busy , everyday i'll be home at late afternoon or evening . There is not one day when i will go home straight after school . yes , this is sec4 life ! HAHA (: School is practically alright i guess . Very stressed . Test , coursework , homework , revision . kill me , Haha !
Shermaine is back in sg ! Met up with sher fr th past two days but sadly i cant go out with you guys , its either classes or not allowed ): Hais , sorry !
Baby is back in school too , Hey dear , dont give up k ? I'll stay by you always . Rmb what i always told you ? JYJY ! You will never know until you try right ?? All th best lovely !
Will update soon , i promise ! ^^

I expected it , It was destinied . But why am i so disappointed ? because i still believe in you guys ? But time and time , its just all shattered to dust ..

Birthday

FLY KITE WITH BABY !!

Sweetest necklace from baby ! ^^
Dress from Willyn and fiona . Wallet from Juliana ! ^^
Balloon from baby !!

Had a awesome day with friends and baby ! Met baby at his house at 9.20 . Sorry , i was late ! HEHE ! After tt met willyn at Yishun cold storage . Bought our stuff for th picnic !! Headed off to marina bay to meet fiona and juliana and soon to MARINA BARRAGE ! Laid out our picnic mat and had a hard time doing eat due to strong wind! HAHA !! Started to open my presents !! Dress from willyn and fiona , wallet from juliana and th necklace from my sweetest boyfr ! Tell him save money alr bu ting hua ! Got smash cream by willyn after tt and we started to eat !! HAHA ! Never thought tt mayo tuna is tt nice ! HAHA !! Started to munch on chips ! Wanted to play scrabble but we couldnt figure out how to play so Ohwell ~ So we started to play UNO ! Second one to win ! HEHE ! Then went to fly kite with laogong ! It was successful !! HEHE ! HIGH !! Except for th part when there is no wind and i started to run around like a mad women but it still failed and fell ._. Went to play in th water will willyn and juliana too ! HAHA ! Headed to baby's house again ! His turn to open th present fr our 7 month ! HEHE ! Cabbed home after a long day !

Guys , thankyou fr such a memorable and wonderful day !! Love you !!

Baby , you made this day possible fr me too . And yr surprise worked out well ! I LOVE YOU !! I'll always remember this first birthday we spent tgt !

Feeling so fly

Holidays are such a bore esp when Im stuck at home ): I need to go to town to have my shopping spree !! I need to go etude house to get my mask and lotions !! I want tt damm jacket from metro ! DAMM ! Money can you pls fall from th sky ??! Daddy have not gave me my pocket money ! ):
Okay ,Im just typing crap because i seriously have nothing to do . And plus im lazy to pack my stuff when i have not bought my books fr next year .LOL . Slow right ? I know , HAHA ! I dont know what to do at home , I've finished all my korean drama and done with all my piano pieces . I want to go jogging but no one is there to accompany me ): . Okay , I KNOW . Im just talking nonsence because i'm just DEAD BORED !

Simple

HAPPY 7th MONTHSARY BABY !!

Yesterday went out with baby to town ! Simple but enjoyable . Went to toast box at somerset for breakfast , than headed to plaza singapura . It have been a long time since we went to town tgt ! HEHE ! Wanted to watch a movie but decided not to . Shopped around plaza singapura . Headed to Tomato for lunch , baby kept giving me food . Gonna grow fat ! HAHA !!

Baby was not feeling well , hope tt you're alright now .

Dearest ,

It has been an long and we've gone through alot these 7 months . Those sweetness were there and still here . Those misery i've suffered , are all fading . Because you're back by side , fully i hope . Everything you gave me , I'll never forget and i am always thankful fr all tt you have done fr me . When i need you , you're always by my side . I'll never take it fr granted . I love you baby , so much more than what i thought i would . You left me once , after all these hurdles , you came back . And i believe tt we are meant to me . As we grow old together , as we continue to change in age but there is one thing tt will never change . Its tt i'll just keep falling in love with you . If time can turn back , I'll still choose to fall in love with you again . I've no regrets , but just happiness with you . Th love you gave me , I'll always cherish and its a fact tt I LOVE YOU !

Baby , i cant wait to celebrate our other days together , i cant wait to pass my days with you because you're just th one i want . I'll always trust and believe in you and believe in our love . Bibi , HAPPY 7 MONTHSARY !! I LOVE YOU !

Time

I've learnt my lesson .
There is no way am i going to choose to see things tt will hurt me down deep . I've had enough of looking at all those stuff which I dont wish to see but see it accidentally . Its just killing me deep down . I dont want to control yr social life or anything so i decided not to tell you .
I dont want to see any of those nonsence to hurt myself anymore . I'll tolerate until one day when i cant take it anymore and when this happens , I have no idea what will I do . Enough is enough . Fucking flirt . _l_

Rewriting

I doubt you will read this space of mine anymore . Lol ..

You let me go and you held me back . Im happy . Thanks .

I thought no matter how much this changed . You would at least still ask , whether was I alright . I thought at least when you knew how cold i was , you would hug me tight like before but i guess its all fading . Catherine ask me , why do i keep everything to myself , i just tell her because i dont want to be a burden , " I just want to be there for him when he needs me , it doesnt matter if he pushes me away when he doesnt.. " These 10 days when we seperated , i was fading and she was coming into th picture . Do you know how delighted and happy i was when you told me to be yours again ? Too happy tt i teared . How foolish , when i know all this will not be th same anymore . First time , when you held me back again , I was overjoyed ! I held on hope tt we will be th same as before , but now its all gone . I know deep down , no matter how much i try , no matter how much i pray , I will never be th shining one in yr heart anymore .

But this is what i deserve . I dug my own grave , making you tired of me . And tts why you left . I am th cause of all this . I have no rights to complain to you , tts why now when im hurt , when im jealous , when im crying , when i feel unfairly treated , i wont tell you . I dont have th rights and i dont want you to feel tired again . No matter how painful i feel in my heart , no matter how bad my health is , i just keep it to myself . I dont want to become a burden to you .

You're th reason im staying here . I pray hard tt in this picture , there is only me and you and not another her . But i guess im slowly fading , becoming smaller in this picture . You ask me why i cant sleep , the reason is you . I think of you all night , i go to sleep at 2am / 3 am every morning , waking up at 7.30 or earlier every morning . Why ? Because i am thinking of you , dreaming of our future .

I stare at my phone always at home , because im waiting fr yr message . And when my phone vibrates , i wish it was you . And when its you , I smile to myself . because i know i still occupy tt space in you at tt moment . I guess i just love you too much , tt i want you all fr myself but i know tt its selfish , and i dont want to share you with anybody else . When you need someone , im always here and i wish tt when you want to talk to someone , im th first one tt comes to yr mind and not anybody else . But when you dont need me , its okay . I will wait till you need me , and i'll be there . Im always by yr side , you will always be in my heart . I promise

When I first met you , I never would have imagined that i would have such strong feelings for you . I never would have thought tt i would have dreams about you or miss being by yr side or get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions yr name . When i first met you , i never would have thought that i would love you . But its a fact now tt i have very strong feelings for you , I have dreams about you and i miss being by yr side . I get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions yr name and its th truth tt I LOVE YOU .