Falling

Saturday
Left th house at 12 plus and headed to amk with baby . Thanks for th surprise worhs dear , its really a SURPRISE !! HAHA (: . Went to have kfc fr lunch and ate quite alot ;x . After tt headed down to amk and walked around and bought a top ^^ . After tt went to amk hub and shop shop shop , haha . Bought one pair of shoes from rubi . After tt tour hub again and headed down to fairprice to get alcohol for jiyeon's farewell bbq . HAHA <: . But could find ._. So after tt met ellis tgt with vanessa and went to get alcohol again . HAHA. After tt trained down to bishan and met jiyeon and others too . After tt headed to risky's condo , th gardens . I swear its fucking chio !! LOL (: . After tt got a little drunk ;x . HAHA . Had a major breakdown due to some personal probs ): infront of baby . After tt baby piggyback me so manny times ! HOHOHO ! Homed at 10 , daddy came to fetch me .
Pictures in facebook .

Sunday
Woke up quite early today . Went to had breakfast and headed down to bugis and after tt headed to 313 and bought two tops ^^ . After tt went to far east plaza and bought a bag after headed down to Ion ochard than ngee ann city than OG than to post office than to plaza singapura and bought some food and hair accesories and nails accesories . Had a mega shopping !! LOL (: Shop from morning 11am till night 8 . Haha . Like mad only right ? LOL .

Signing off already , lovely toodles ^^

Iloveyou , baby .

Pissed

Fucked up results , fucked up parents , fucked up life .
If you dont like me like tt , no one ask you accept me . Want me to dont live in yr house and want to throw me out ? Be my guest . Putting all th blame on me when i did not even do anything ? Whats yr problem seriously ? Spoil my holidays , you happy isit ?! WHEN ITS NOT EVEN MY FUCKING FAULT ! You want to screw yr own life , go ahead and screw it . Dont you dare mess with my life , dont you dare to ask me do what and what and what you like AND NOT WHAT I LIKE !? Making me pissed off on my holiday , thankyou seriously . I was in a wonderful mood today ready to enjoy my shopping spree today and now you make me really dont even have th mood to fucking leave the house !? You say im not yr daughter anymore , FINE ! IM NOT !? What ? Say im not yr biological daughter , fine . I ACCEPT IT ! Seriously , i had enough . Im out of here . Today , you made me drop enough tears what about tmr ? Somemore isit ?! Enough is enough , I HAD ENOUGH !?

Sweetest

Got back some of my overall results . SUUCKY . Really got to work hard ): . Going to chiong during june holiday , i maybe spamming my phone calling people to teach me do this and tt .. LOL . I know tts very evil of me but i cant help it . HEHE .
My dear boyfriend says he is going to gimme a surprise on our first month , hehe . He gave me clues but i just cant think of anything ): .Meanie ! Keep me in suspence . HAHA (: . But i still love you soooo much!!
Just talked to baby on th phone not long ago , going to bathe soon . Waiting for th water heater to gooo hot ! HAHA . even though th weather is so damm hot . Its going to be short post , pictures next time .Going out soon , toodles ^^

Gaining

Mid year is like finally over !! WOOHOOO !! HEHE (: . Like finally , but results are coming back one by one . DAMM IT ?! LOL (: . Scored fairly for midyears i guess EXCEPT MY MATH ! Alright , i've made up my mind . Im going to be goodfriends with math and do well in it soon enough :x ! HEHE ! Here are th overall results :
English : C5
Math : D7
D&T : A2
Higher CL : A2
History : A2
Just got back these papers today .I know its kinda screwed up for my english thanks to my CA results so pulled down th whole thing same as my math , its kinda screw up too x) HEHE ! Math too , but at least now im a D7 student ! AINT A F9 anymore ! its kinda optimistic but still yarhs , im still trying k ^^ . HAHA ! Alright , im going to be a good girl and do some revision during june holidays even though i know i'll be playing away ~ HAHA (: . But who cares ?! ITS HOLIDAY !! HAO ! HEHE (: . Kk , i will study . HAHA . Had a long day today , school , tuition , home , dinner , revision and whats next ? SLEEP ! HAHA ^^ . Im sucha pig right ? HEHE . Because i am lahh , lol !! Need to change my blog song but i cant think of one , hehe !! How about classical ? Okay , tts going to be a little boring . HEHE ! Im going broke nowadays , have been eating and spending alot of money on food nowadays ! OMG ! IM GROWING FAT ): . LOL ! I just realise something , during exam due to stress i loose weight and when i study i gain weight . JUST BECAUSE I START EATING WHEN I SIT DOWN AND STUDY ! LOL (: OMG ! HEHE ! Alright , im going back to do some revision already . Toodles readers ^^ .

Ohmy , I just love that sweet boyfr of mine (L)

Nothing last

Had a long day out with baby and xc . Met baby at amk library at 12.20 and xc came at 1 plus and both of them taught me math . Thanks manns ! After tt went to have lunch at amk foodcourt , so crowded . HEHE ! After lunch , went to have a walk around hub and it lasted around one hour plus unexpectedly . Haha . Bought a pink ribbon hairband , it was just too chio to me !! Haha , after tt went back to macdonald to study as th library was just too cold . hehe ^^ . And i ate again ._. Choco sundae . LOL (: . Studied and studied till 5 and daddy came to pick me home as dinner was cooked for me at grandma house and dont want her to be disappointed and so yearhs , i went home . HAHA (: . Had much fun and learned alot of new knowledge . Pictures are with baby , will have a direct link once i catch hold of th pictures .
Left with 3 papers , exam will be over by tuesday . Lovely ! Going to continue with my biology already . Toodles ^^ !!
Omg , my stomach is in pain ): .

You healed tt broken heart of mine , gave it a new look and caught hold of it .

Dreamland

Had not been posting for a week ! Have been busy studting of MYE th pass few days ! And finally after one week of intense studying , I think i'll be able to pass all my subjects !! Hehe ! Really got to say a big thankyou to baby for pei-ing me study and teaching me with so much patience even though i took me a long long long time to understand but still thankyou !! (L) For th first time , i actually feel that math paper 1 was quite easy ! OMG !! LOL ! Only tt i got some questions tt i dont know . And i finally understand my balance sheet for my poa thanks to NABILAH (: and my chemistry too ! HAHA ! *insert winks* ,
Still got three more papers to go , math paper 2 , biology and dnt . I shall continue to mug till next monday and its all over ! HEHE ! Last paper on tuesday . Cant wait to have a totally relax weekend ! Like finally and i want to catch a movie ! Asap , it has been so long since i stepped into a cinema , two months ago was th last time . HAHA (: .
Yesterday went to have long johns breakfast with girlfriends after chemistry paper and after tt baby came and went to have a long long long day with him . HAHA ! Went to his house , and after tt cabbed home . Sadly , had a huge arguement with mummy but settled out things today . Im really tired of all this , hope you understand mummy . After th arguement had a major breakdown , poor eyes of mine . Baby came to find me again after major breakdown cause i was really feeling very down , its just so sweet of you baby ! (L). After long hourse of omfort , finally he made me laugh ! HAHA ! Tickle me somemore ahs ? Next time my turn ^^ . HEHE ! Had an early night , slept around 9 plus ? Was just toooo tired ): .Woke up at 8 today morning , pig or what ? LOL ! After such a long and wordy post , i shall go back and study like AGAIN ! haha .
Lovely toodles ^^ .

You made my heart skipped a beat , (L)

Journey

I never expected much from you /. I just want th basic respect and th tender love you guys used to give me . I dont need branded items or th best food . I just want tt motherly and fatherly love you used to give me . I really miss the times when guys will laugh at my jokes and i really miss th times when you give me comforts when im down , give me encouragement when i fail my exams and tell me to do better , telling me tt " heys , well done" when i do well and especially , I miss th feeling of HOME . Because now you only say tt im stupid when i say my jokes , when im down you just shut me out of yr heart , when i fail my exams , you blame and scold me .
You guys are always argueing non stop , Im tired of it . When i do well in my exams or other tests , you guys will just tell me " why isit not a perfect score ? " When i fail my exams you hit my hard in my heart by telling me " you just dont have th brains" . And now , this home is just a place for me to sleep in .
I can never cry in front of you guys again , I can never hear those compliments from you again , i can never feel th Love from you guys again , i can only hope for it to happen .. I can never tell anyone how i feel because I dont know how . I cant let my tears fall in front because i never showed anyone such a weak side of me . I just hope you two know tt you guys were really once a loving parent tt i can never have any complains . But ever since i was 7 , you guys changed totally . Im put in th hands of somebody else and not you two . I just want you to know tt Im not as strong as you think i am , but no matter how strong am i , i still have th weakest side of me . Me too , have a vulnerable side . But you know what ? I can never show tt vulnerable side of me to anyone ...
If you guys say tt you guys did yr duty as parents , i can just say tt whatever you think . I dont bother anymore . Settle yr problems yrself , dont only come to me when you have no one to go to because im th last on yr list . Im really disappointed tt im th last on yr list but its a fact already . I cant change anything . Im really depressed , but you guys think tt i am just sooo strong but you know whats th fact ? Im really depressed , im really tired , im really very vulnerable . Im helpless of what to do already , i can only let my tears down when you two are in yr sleep and im awake letting my tears drop . I hate how much i really believe in you guys tt one day you will proudly say " Yes , she is my daughter " but you know what ? You guys never said it , not even once . Perhaps im just sucha disgrace to you guys , i understand and from now on i will accept this fact and not have false hopes on you guys tt you will proudly tell peeps tt im yr daughter . Im just too tired ..

I cried , but you never noticed .

Timeless

dont my dear baby look like he wants to cry ? :c

Had a day out with baby yesterday . Went to bishan library to study , and guess what ? I really did , hehe . Shit it ! Should have take a candid shot of him and post it here but unforutunately i failed ): HEHE ! After studying , decided to have our lunch ! Headed to j8 , went to pizza hut , no space ! headed to pastamania , full house ! Haha , but i was craving for pizza hut ): . Hence , tt sweet baby of mine thought of going to amk's pizza hut for lunch ! Pei me all th way there just to sastify my craving , thanks baby ! You're so sweet ! HEHE (L) . Had our orders and i just found out something , baby is mad over pizza hut's cheese ! HAHA !! He was like spamming it in his spaghetti ! HAHA ! And i was little bit stunned . LOL ! But who knows , it started to rain ): . But we still managed to walk in th shelter all th way to amk hub . Not bad , haha ! My poor baby was little drenched , heart pain ): . After tt my aunt phoned me so decided to meet her and bid goodbye to my baby ! (L)

Pei aunt all th way to tampiness and met grandma there to buy grandma's mother day present . hehe , aunt bought her a jade bracelet and i bought her a top . haha ! Not bad ,veeko's . After tt shop shop shop till 9 plus and headed home . Had a h2h talk all th way from 11.30 till 1 am in th morning . Had a little heartbreak for a moment , but its okay , i forgive ! LOL , dont feel guitly already k baby ? Sweetest dreams at 1.20 am ^^ .

Going to celebrate mothers day later with mummy ! Wishing all mothers on earth , happy mothers day !! I LOVE YOU MUMMY !! Hope you like yr mother's day present !

Going out already , lovely toodles ^^ .

5th , you're my luv .

Memo

Cant believe it , its only 3 hours since i last saw you .

But im missing you already till im going mad . Its like not seeing you for one moment , i could go mad . You blow up my mind .

My love for you isnt just so simple , it aint complicated too .

Its just simply up to you to put up th pieces too .

My love , I miss you ); ....

I love you 5th .

Lovable

Its just simply , I love you my dear boyfriend .

050510.0815 .

I'll never forget what happen tt day , when you asked me to be yours .

Th sweet and tender feeling coming from yr love , i felt .

It is just like a tattoo within me . Baby , I love you (L) .

Mystery

My love doesnt have any complications , its just like any other's love ..
My heart is not complicated , its justs a little weak sometimes ..

Today went to school per normal , nothing much happened .
CANT BELIEVE IT ! I actually finish two papers of math , one worksheet of poa and one worksheet of ss and passed my history class test !! SO HAPPY !! Weee ! It just feels so great to do yr work well , doesnt it ? hehe ! I shall continue being like tt and I'll succeed in getting my good grades right ? ;/ . cant believe it but im aiming for 11 points for my L1R5 including deductiong my higher chinese points and cca points !! LOL (: ! JYJY CHAR !! LOL (: have been having mood swings ): . I shall go and continue to work hard perhaps , i hoped i did not screwed up my mother tongue paper ): or else how am i going to get my L1R5 !! Damm it ): . Lovely toodles !

Clueless

Currently mugging on my books . Chemistry , hehe . Just too bored , have been having mood swings too ): . Sorry peeps who have to tolerate with it !! ): . Have been crushing alot of papers and my table is still not organised yet !! Damm it ?!
Forget it , shall pack it after exams . Its gonna be messy again later right ? So i'll just make it organised now and LATER neat and organised . HEHE (: Need to going stationary shopping later , some my of pens are running out of ink !! And get a new file , HOT PINK OF COURSE ! Hehe (: Alright , i shall not bullshit anymore . hehe .
Toodles ^^

Whenever you look into my eyes , tell me tt you love me . Everything would be fine .

Untidy

OMG !! Since th moment i step into my room this morning , i got th shock of my life ! HEHE ! It was just so messy x) I really need to pack , mum has been nagging about it too . Stacks of books piled up , stationary, full scap paper all around my table and a whole bunch of notes waiting to be oragnised done by me x) . hehe ! i think i need a bigger table ): HEHE !! Th problem is now i need find a place to hide my books . haha !! I think this ladtop of mine is taking a big big space ! But nevermind , its my source of energy !! HEHE !
Alright , i shall get going to organise my table x) Will post a picture of my before and after results k ? I bet you guys would get a damm shock of how messy my table can be during examination period x) HEHE !! Had been chiong-ing my math . LOL , cant believe it right ? But no choice , i want to do well in my Os !! I NEED TO GET INTO A JC !? HAHA (:
Ehem , Somebody . Better must study more on yr chinese horhs !! You promise already one horhs , must keep yr promise . Will try help you if i can . Do yr best alright ?? Jyjy luv !
So tired now but no choice , after my packing my room . I SHALL GO BACK TO SLEEP ! OMG ! Im sucha pig , hehe . Got woken by th horrible sun ): hehe . But i have math tuition later ): SUCKY !! HATE THIS ! ARGH?! Why must tuition even exist in the world ?! Hehe ! AND WHY MUST MATH EVEN EXIST ?! HATE IT ): HEHE !! Alright alright , i need to get back to work already , hehe . Lovely toodles ^^ !
My dearest , I love you ttm .

Love

If only i could be cuddled in yr arms now .
If only i could feel th touch of yr skin , th tender love i feel from it .
If only i could scream yr name loudly , telling you how much i miss you .
If only i could tell them how much i love you .
If only i could say to everyone tt ask , " yes , i belong to him " ..

Nothing ever stopped me from sinking deeper into this love stream . Once , i tried to let go but i just couldn't . I like th way you look into my eyes , its just like another travel machine . Making me to travel into th yr heart . Now i can finally say , i belong with you (L) . My sweetest love , i love you .

Right round

It has been such a looonnnggg time since i posted in th dead dead dead dead dead blog !!! hehe , since SOMEBODY asked me post , i shall be a good girl and listen ^^ .
OMG! So high but now but who cares ? Maybe meeting my sister tomorrow to study , cant wait to see you . It has been soooooo long since we met . hehe ! Hmmm , lets catch up with alot of things dear ! Hehe .
Totally screwed up my mother tongue paper 2 . Left one question blank and th paper was so fcuking hard !! OMG ! After tt went home by 3.30 . Hehe , so tired . But hope can do well bahs !! I want my distinction ): HEHE ! Will study hard to do it derhs , i shall be a good girl . On facebook now , hehe . Disturbing deon now , haha ! How dare you call me immature ! ): . Make me so sad , go one corner draw circle ): . HEHE !!

Dearest love , yr love just make my world go mad . I love you .
I believe , tt you will stay .