Fear

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I tried to run away there is just something keeping me back . Isit you ? Im terrified , by reality . I know how everything starts and ends but , perhaps im just too foolish .
A fool like me , so pathetic .
Yeap , you're right . It was all my fault alright ? How unreasonable can you be manns . I really dont want to say this but you are really a mistake , a horrible one . I dont know what to do anymore but i really just want to say you ASSHOLE !! ): .

My tears drops , but you weren't there to wipe it away for me .

Teardrops

Deeply hurt by yr cold actions , im clueless of what to do . Tell me what to do ? ;/ . This insecure feeling , i really just want to end everything but i cant do it cause i know how many tears will fall down my cheeks . I know my heart will hurt ttm . I know i will think of you every second then , i know how will i feel if i see you . Even if we were friends , i dont know how to face you . Why must you do this to me ? I keep on asking myself what did i do wrong to deserve this but nothing comes to my mind . Am i too lousy or what ? ): Please , if you had fun playing with my feelings , set me free NOW . I had enough , crying two days for you . My eyes are too painful but tears are still flowing . I dont want my sickness to come back again . It took me a long time to pass tt hurdle . Give me back my heart if you dont want it . Dont be selfish . You just dont know how to treasure me right ? I give you another chance , but if you dont treasure this chance . Im sorry , I'll do th worst and toture myself again . Its yr choice . To let me be happy , or kill me with misery .

Emotions , i just want someone to hold me tight in their arms and let me know tt from th bottom of their heart tt they love me for what mades me up and not what covers me . But you never appeared , i was too foolish to believe in love again . I give up .

Fustrated

Feel so fustrated and lousy today . Dont know why . Almost pick up a arguement with boyfriend again just now . Sorry sorry huney ): I really did not mean to show you this side of me just now . I did not do it on purpose . Thanks for understanding yeap ? (: Im really sorry . I'll try my best to avoid this from happening alright ?? Sorry , ILOVEYOU !
Yesterday me and bro stayed over my maternal side's grandma house . Haha , so sweet of daddy to go home and get my phone charger for me cause my phone was in low battery . HAHA ! (: Slept around 11.20 last night cause i was really too tired ! HAHA , JunHao and junyi stayed over too . Haha . Woke up around 9am today ? Feel like im sucha pig now . Haha . Woke up and watched two dvds with junhao , junyi and bro (: . Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 and New moon . Haha , was just too bored (: . OMG !! Never get sick of th show . Haha . Accidentally vent my anger on junhao too . Sorry yeap ? ): Did not mean it and thanks for th comforts too ! Goodluck for yr Olevels too yeap ? Haha (: So sad michelle , lawrence and catherine could not stay over ): Nevermind ! Next time we shall sleep over at michelle and lawrence's house , HAHA ! You owe us one yeap ? Hehe (: \ Went home around 1 plus and gonna go out with dad and mum later on (: .
OMG !! I went online just now and watched justin bieber's videos just now to cool myself down . HAHA , so cute !! I am so in love with him manns ! Haha (: Dont be jealous ahs huney xP HAHA !! Im just crazy of him , key and hyun joong ! OMG !! HAHA ! Im mad already . Lol . Alright , going to prepare to go out already . Lovely toodles ^^

Liar

All yr fcuking lies , all th bloody attitude of your's , yr fcuking horrible face . FUCK OFF ! Dont you dare mess with my life . I had enough of all yr fucking attitude and tolerating with you . I have my limits k ?! Being fooled by you once is enough , no more . Am not gonna fall for yr trap again , try harder . So just simply , SHIT YOU ! Just really SCRAM from my life .

Fcuking liar .


Am really pissed off right now , this moment , this damm second !!!

Mistake

Today went for cross country run . Haha , guess what ? I did not even run at all accept for th part me and wenmin ran to catch up with jr and szeting . HAHA !! walked all th way but it was still damm eff-ing hot kayy ? HAHA !!
After cross country went to amk mac with wenmin , jr and szeting to eat lunch and play swing !! LOL !! But i left around 12.3o liddat ? Had to rush home for tuition and for daddy ): . HAIS !! Luckily mum last minute let me go have lunch with them . Lol . Going to pack my bio file later , if i feel like it x) HAHA !
Damm it , th blister under my foot burst than bleed just now . SO pain ):):):): . Dont know tmr can wear shoe to school anot cause just now it hurt till i cried ): . Pictures are in wenmin blog , omg . I look so unglam . HAHA !! Dont give you all th link to see lahh x) HAHA !!
Alright , I shall be a good girl and arrange my file now (: Lovely toodles ^^

Can i say i dont trust you anymore ? Shit you .

Sweetest dreams

Firstly , congratulations aunty kethlyn for yr 1st baby ! Takecare of yrself and th lil' one in there ahs ! (: Haha , yeepee ! Gonna have another baby cousin . Haha .
Secondly for my tt playful and irratating little brother x) , Get well soon yeap ?? See lahh , play psp in th car until vomit . Take note of what you eat yarhs ? Dont anyhow just see what nice than eat ahs . Must take not , even thought you are still so damm skinny (envy ): ) haha , get well soon (:
Thirdly for daddy and mummy , dont be upset already . Things will turn out fine even there has been alot of problems at home recently !!
Fourthly , Cheerup already wenmin ? You'll always have me and others around for you . Just be happy and dont think about it already yeap ? Dont get pissed off cause of tt kind of person yarhs ? Love ya !!
And finally boyfriend , get well soon yeap ! (: Dont overstress yrself !!
School overall has been fine this two days just tt have been lacking of sleep these few sleep , my eyes are always heavy when th class just really get too boring esp math x) HAHA ! Today POA teacher got a little angry and after tt started joking again , so funny ! HAHA ! Shall someday take a photo and him and post it . Cause th way he teach sometimes are just simply so funny ! LOL ! Tomorrow going to do summary tt will be counted in ppr ): . Scared scared . Lol , shall try my best yarhs ? Have my points already . Heard tt will have poa test tmr but i dont even understand what to write ! Haha , nevermind . I shall give my best shot tomorrow yarhs ? Will study hard tonight . LOL .
Have been disturbing shannon papa in class recenly but its fun . HAHA ! Also have been having alot of fun with vanessa , ziying and siti in class too . Joking and always making fun of each other . HAHA !! Alright , i shall get on to do my work now and some revision !
Toodles ^^

Leisure

Wednesday went to amk hub with fiona to catch a movie together since we have not gone out with each other for sucha long time . So sad willyn couldn't come ): Caught "Being Human" since it was fiona's recomendation . Haha . It was humourous but i was in a "gong" state throughout th movie as there was alot of hokkien and i dont understand it . Luckily there were subtitles . Its a average movie but still to give it a rating , 3/5 (: Haha .

Today will be staying home perhaps but will be going for class later at 4 till 630 . I seriously dont have th mood to go for tt class . So bored ): And plus gonna need to do alot of work ): . Really need more sleep , have not been having goodnights recently . Panda eyes are getting darker , eyebags thicker . AHS ! ): .
Facebook-ing now . Haha , Mood have risen up abit recently ! Good good ! (: Boyfriend will be coming back to sg on saturday . Better be , dont want false info again . LOL .

Catherine , Im glad tt you saw th post and understand what i mean . Yeap , it takes time , i know . But remember im here always k ? Im also glad tt you know isnt worth of what you are doing for him . Throw him away and he isnt worth to be shit as shit still can be recycled and used as a fertiliser . Cheerup girl , Im here always ! Lovely .

Alright , Im going to have my lunch alright . Till then , Toodles ^^ !

Honestly , I feel like I am living no more ..

Actions

Your actions really hurt me alot . Dont you know how much you mean to me ? Accusing me ? Isit really tt fun ? It wasn't my fault at all in th first place . You knew how close we were , but you just let this random guy spoil everything between us . Even though we aint blood related sisters but we are much closer than tt , We shared everything since young . I never expected this out of you . Is this guy really worth you doing this btw ? It hurts me too seeing you like this . I really want to talk th wits out with you but i decided not to cause you just wont bother . We are absoulotely not like cousins , we are something much closer than this . I've nothing to say . I miss th times when Me , you , michelle , lawrence , jun yi and jun hao used to play . Now its only me with them without you , what is this ? Ask yrself dear , does this guy really worth it for you to give up everything ? He is just a playboy , like what you told me before : Its over , so be happy as you got this pile of useless shit out of yr life instead of being sad of a pile of shit . Isnt this what you told me ? Now its my turn to repeat this quote to you . Im really dissapointed with what you are now , i just hope you wake up k ? Dont keep yrself trap in yr room always . Go out , breathe some fresh air . No matter how much conflicts we had before , I'll forgive and forget . I just really hope you wake up my girl . I know its hard to let go and it hurts alot to be in this situation . I've been through what you are going through now girl . I know it hurts as if millions of knives have been stabbed into yr heart but you got to be strong alright girl ? You pass this test like how i have passed through it . Go all th way !!

Memories

Just woke up , its 11.05 in the morning . Happiness is surrounding me this morning just because i really had a goodnight sleep ^^ . Fixed my webcam too , hopefully it works (:
Scenery here is beautiful even though with th foggy atmosphere in th morning . Will be heading back to Singapore this evening because Eugene isnt feeling well . Caught th boat ticket at 5pm . Wont say he is spoiler as i really miss home too ): But we're suppose to go home on thursday but its okayy bahs . I miss my comfy bed , th bed here has a smell . Horrible one . HAHA ! Therefore , went to th sofa to catch a wink and suprisingly its quite comfy x) HAHA !
Forget to bring my phone charger , its like 20% remaining now ): But nevermind , shall borrow th charger from either daddy or mummy later . Haha . Sad to say its quite boring here , weather aint too good either . It has been raining very frequently , the sand is becoming like soil . Im sure i dont want to walk on it ):Yesterday went to a manicure with Mummy , Elaine and Aunty Jamie at a nearby shop near th hotel . Uncle Han and Daddy with Eugene went to do their own stuff . HAHA ! Went to nearby shops for a shop too (: After tt gathered infront of a halal restaurant for dinner . Food was great ! Best part was tt my sunburn from th previous sec3 camp at kota tinggi is hurting even more thanks to exposure of sun ): .
SG IM COMING HOME IN 4 HOURS ! HAHA ! Till then , Toodles !^^

Much Loves

Thanks wenmin for yr help when im away ! LOVE YA ! ^^
Profile and tagboard are at th bottom of th page . Sorry for th existing incoonvience . I'll try to fix it asap yeap ? (: Want songs in this blog ? Comment on my tag board yeap ? Lovely !(:

School is alright overall , results are all okayy except my english and math ):
Back to blogging (: HAHA
Will do somemore touch ups in this blog , and will not be too active in blogging too . HAHA !
But you guys wont mind right ? Hehe (: Life has been alright , had been a long time since i started blogging . LOL ! Heyy peeps ! Link me up yeas ? This is my new link ! HAHA !
And those who have new links , kindly leave a tag and i'll link you guys up !
Stuck at home today , need to take care of my brother ._. Want to get my ass out ! OMG ! LOL !
Missing my dearest boyfr too , damm you lahh evil ! Go back indo for so many days ): But its okayy , i understand . See ! I so understanding ! Dont say i bully you lerhs horhs . Hehe , Love love !
Miss school too , feel kinda weird not meeting up with peeps , so bored at home ):
Yesterday went out with michelle and did some shopping . Bought a pair of heels and new top for mummy actually at a good price ! Went home around 9pm . Any song recomendations ? Currently lack of it , of course , korean songs are in priority ! hehe (:
Meeting with michelle ! HAHA , after tt going to her house for piano class at 1oam . Hope it will be smooth today . Lovely doodles ! ^^
Will be setting off to bali at 11am .

Optimism covers me , Low emotions fills me . In this battlefield , i mean nothing to you .

New Love , new blog

hey readers ,
wenmin here to be th first one to post in this quiet blog .
this is CHARMAINE CHAN's blog .
http://www.romance-chemistry.blogspot.com/
gonna link charmaine's blog in my blog .

so if whoever blog hop here , know charmaine chan ?

please kindly leave a tag , if not just pass by here will do .

this blog will be under some construction when th owner's back .

thank you very much (:

byes ~