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Im sad , i dont know why . I cried , i guess i was being emotional and just cant be optimistic anymore . Whats getting into me ? I feel so weak always , i feel like giving up . I browse through my memories and ask myself " Have i live my life to th fullest ? " And my answer is No . I have yet to do so many things ..
I love cranes , i love hearts , i love stars . Have been collecting and folding them daily , I wish that these can bring back me , i wish that maybe somehow you will notice that i really do need you sometimes when i say " Its okay .. " . But its alright , i know its alot to ask , Im not an not understanding person . I dont to become yr burden . I want yr memory of me to be a cheerful person , and lets stay tt way alright ?
My hamster , Candy . Is trying to cheer me up by walking around my table which is sooo cute ! I talk to her , am i crazy ? haha . Where has all my optimism gone ? I dont know how to do so anymore ;/ . I wish i can just cry it all out in one shot ..