Giving

My heart is aching , why dont you know ? Why dont you just give me chance to touch you again ? Last night i dreamt tt you were so near but so far to reach . I guess it was all my fault , fr th failures of this relationship . 3 days , 3 nights . Sleepless nights . I promised tt i would be strong , but what to do . I just love you too much . And now i lost you . I saw alot of stuff tt made me jealous , but i cant be jealous because i dont have th rights to be anymore right ? I see couples on th streets , in th televisions , all around me but i could not do anything but just envy . Envy how happy they are , and looking at myself how pathetic . What could i say ? She is much prettier , she is perhaps more careful , less fussy, not easily jealous . And what am i compared to her ? Nothing . So what rights do i have to be jealous ? All i could do it swallow everything down my throat . Let my heartache , cry myself to sleep to escape from reality . But when i wake up , realiy is back .

I fell sick , but th first thing in my mind was still you . Are you alright ? Have you ate yr meals ? Whats wrong with you charmaine ? Who are you ? Will he know all this , will he even give you tt one more chance ? Why are you damm hell crying ?? No matter how much you cry , he wont turn back and give a hug anymore . You fell down , but he is not there to pull you back up anymore . You know all this , why are you hoping tt he will suddenly appear there to hug you or to even pull you back ? You told me you will keep my heart , you told me you will not throw it away , but you threw it back at me , broken .

But dear , i love you soo much . What am i going to do ? Become stronger ? But will you even want me back ? ..