Misery

Another day , another story . Somehow i wished you were by my side but i know its just not possible . Baby perhaps you dont know but actually , i kept an album full of our pictures . Lol , just tt i kept it safe x) Lol . Today i flipped it open , saw our memories from th first picture we took , th memories i wrote , My tears flows again . How sweet we were , can you remember ?
Today in novena , i saw th couples walking pass me , you just came back to my mind again . Than I saw their hands , it just somehow reminds me how you tried to hold my fr th first time . I saw how catherine and aston kissed , it just reminds me how you first kissed me . Somehow , my tears just fall again . I was limping , felicia was holding me , how i wished tt one holding me was you ..
Daddy asked me what happen to me , i dont know how to answer . He asked me how are thing between us , i could only say " Yeah , we're doing well " . Today i accidentally dropped my ss book and i saw th rainbow you drew fr me and you writing " Can i be yr rainbow forever ? " I cried .. Today I went to place we went often , th amk playground . I saw th swing and th flasback of you pushing me on th swing comes back again .. Again , i cried . I played "wonderful tonight" , it make me remember we trying to learn tt song on th piano and my tears fell into th piano keys ..
I made you tired , it was my fault . I am th cause of all this , i cant blame anyone . 11:11 , I just hope one day when i become stronger , you would come and ask me to be yours again . Tts my wish . You told me you were going to celebrate my birthday with me this year and not let me celebrate alone again and when i heard it was really thrilled but i guess this year is gonna be th same again . Dear , takecare of yrself alright ? Remember to eat ! ALWAYS DONT EAT ): . Must eat alright ? I love you .