Hurt

Me too , wants to loved by someone dearly . Me too , wants a hug when im down . Me too , wants you to say tt "She's mine " . But i know this will never happen . I want to be th rose tt shines the brightest in yr garden . Sadly , i cant .
Do you even know i cried ? Do you even know how many tears dropped ? DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW MY HEART BLEEDS ?! Do you even know how my heart feels ? Do you even know i fell damm sick thanks to you ? Do you even know how i really FUCKING feel ?!
I give up really , i give up in everything . Being so stressed up because of this , i cant help but to let my tears flow again and again . If only i can scream it all out in one shot but sadly i cant . I only can keep every single feeling to myself . Everytime i see you , i hold on to my tears . And after let everything out when no one is there . One fine day really , i'll fall into depression again . Its already predicted . Trust me , its only a matter of time when i really cant take any of these anymore .
I fell sick because of this fucking matter too . Really , its a sooner or later thing tt my heart really tears apart . I dont know how long more can i control myself . Relying on th bloody medicine to keep me alive now . Relying on yr voice to give me energy to move on . Always laughing and being happy at th outside but do you know ? Th soul inside me is crying and sobing every second. Yes , in everyone's eyes , IM TH BAD GUY ! But th fact is tt , imma victim too ..